Well, I found out that my ex-owner of the restaurant hired a chef who I know. She told me that she doesn't want to run another restaurant any more. I was like okay fine. I don't know why but I feel kind of used. I design the kitchen with my experiences. Now, i feel like it will become his style and whenever I open my own, I might be a copycat. I don't know how to describe my feeling. I put so much effort on my restaurant and it is gone. I should not look back. I didn't want to see someone in my kitchen which I created. That could be only my greed. Well the kitchen came from my brain but the fund wasn't so the kitchen belongs to money. I wasn't good enough to cook at my own kitchen.
Well, it is just shock to me.
In Korea, I think many people hate me. the way I think, the way I talk and the way whatever I do.
There was a cook who used to work with. Since I found he has some skills that I don;t have, he was my first choice to recruit. he got along well and we work together to make something good. He did his part well. The day we packed our stuffs, I told him that we should catch up for beer. He already made plans and didn't even give me any chance to talk about what happen.
After few weeks passed, I realized that he was un-friend with on facebook. I do not know why. Maybe he slipped the fingers. Or he doesn't think that I am a chef anymore. Well, I don't hate him. He never told me how he think of me. At the last day, I just wanted to talk about many things. He might have figured out who I am already. That could be the reason he doesn't want to talk me any more. How should I know??
Well, I do sometimes scare of working with Korean. It is harder than any other country I used to work. I don't know why I am not acceptable in Korea even though I am a Korean.
There are not many people recognize me as a chef in Korea. The ex-owner said if the business has not pick up in a month, there no reason to continue. New chef is like new rock star in the industry. I am sure that people will come and packed everyday. It also will proof that I am not as good as him.
Hold on, what is the stand of how good?? I got so much negative feeling on me. Well, I just wanna be a different. I don't just wanna be a better chef but different chef. I should create the field that shows me that who I am. Who the fuck am I?? I am is I am. I know my attitude suck. I do not care. I got no time to check on me because I have to think about how I cook and what I cook. In Korea, my age is 35 but I am 33 and half. I do believe that I am still young and strong. To stand up by myself will take bit longer but I will one day. I am looking for the moment of slapping my face. I got to wake up and I got to find something that only I can do. Until then, the journey never ends
Friday, February 7, 2014
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
Blah blah blah
Okay, I am gonna catch up with you what's been going. Just because the owner didn't think what I cook isn't good for stable business by observing a month after opened the place, she decide to let me go and shut down all the projects that I've been doing. She gave a month but I told her the nature of restaurant business should watch for minimum 3 month to a year. She didn't listen to me and she was way too stubborn. What I did was to pack my stuffs next day and left. It was bit longer than 2 weeks ago.
At first, I've been looking any solution that I can open a place. Only problem is that I got no money to do anything. I'd asked banks and some other organizations if there is any option that I can lend some money. Without doubt, there is no possibility. In fact, opening a restaurant with someone else's money is not always good idea. I would start with debts and might be done with mountain of debts. It is very risky.
I've been thinking while I was at a temple. Only the way I can break the chain of being kitchen slave by someone else and I can have my freedom of creation back is to open my place with my money.
I fucking hate money. Money didn't come first than human but, in this reality life, money controls human and people became its slaves. Especially in Korea, money is the easiest way to judge people. Whether the person is successful or not is by how much he or she has. In my opinion, anyone whom has dream and doing what the person is what-I-so-call "Successful Life".
Anyhow, it is hard to get a job again. In Korea, there are a lot of restaurant but not much diversity. Capitalism spoiled people well in Korea. Some people wanna make money that they establish some franchise restaurant company. It's not like what chef wants to cook for people. Whatever trend flows, the company catches up and open multiple exactly same restaurant everywhere in Korea. That is why there are so many job opening at these franchise restaurants.
My first two restaurants are franchise restaurants and now they all shut down. Back in 1999, opening a franchise restaurant was booming and cooking career became new professional career. My father was also a chef but in our father's generation, cook isn't even a job. It was the job only if anyone don't have any skill and money to study.
I don't know what happen back then, but there more imported franchise brand came to Korea and there were more schools offered cooking class. It was the trend when I was having first year at the kitchen. At these days, we didn't call chef as chef. there was no chef in the kitchen. Kitchen had same ranking system as office workers. Nowadays, the word chef is well known and people call chef as chef. You know what happened?? Well, a popular tv serise did that. Plus, after all, there were more Italian restaurant opened up like pop-corn.
In my first few year of working at two franchise restaurant, we made our own source and dressing, even stock.Almost end of my second year, the company decided create same consistency of taste among other branches. My job was to make source and dressing at that time and all of sudden, only thing what I have to do was to open these packages of source and dressing. It was the moments of what the fuck.
My point is that franchise restaurant companies want that any cook make exact as what the recipes say. They ignore individual talent and skills. only thing they want from us,chef and cook, is to be bending machines.
Korea need more chefs with good philosophy of cooking and chef should open more places, not by company. Also consumers should enjoy more at independent restaurant.
Working for a franchise restaurant company is against my believe. However, I do need money and free time to work on my next project. Ironically, working as menu development chef would be a good idea for now
At first, I've been looking any solution that I can open a place. Only problem is that I got no money to do anything. I'd asked banks and some other organizations if there is any option that I can lend some money. Without doubt, there is no possibility. In fact, opening a restaurant with someone else's money is not always good idea. I would start with debts and might be done with mountain of debts. It is very risky.
I've been thinking while I was at a temple. Only the way I can break the chain of being kitchen slave by someone else and I can have my freedom of creation back is to open my place with my money.
I fucking hate money. Money didn't come first than human but, in this reality life, money controls human and people became its slaves. Especially in Korea, money is the easiest way to judge people. Whether the person is successful or not is by how much he or she has. In my opinion, anyone whom has dream and doing what the person is what-I-so-call "Successful Life".
Anyhow, it is hard to get a job again. In Korea, there are a lot of restaurant but not much diversity. Capitalism spoiled people well in Korea. Some people wanna make money that they establish some franchise restaurant company. It's not like what chef wants to cook for people. Whatever trend flows, the company catches up and open multiple exactly same restaurant everywhere in Korea. That is why there are so many job opening at these franchise restaurants.
My first two restaurants are franchise restaurants and now they all shut down. Back in 1999, opening a franchise restaurant was booming and cooking career became new professional career. My father was also a chef but in our father's generation, cook isn't even a job. It was the job only if anyone don't have any skill and money to study.
I don't know what happen back then, but there more imported franchise brand came to Korea and there were more schools offered cooking class. It was the trend when I was having first year at the kitchen. At these days, we didn't call chef as chef. there was no chef in the kitchen. Kitchen had same ranking system as office workers. Nowadays, the word chef is well known and people call chef as chef. You know what happened?? Well, a popular tv serise did that. Plus, after all, there were more Italian restaurant opened up like pop-corn.
In my first few year of working at two franchise restaurant, we made our own source and dressing, even stock.Almost end of my second year, the company decided create same consistency of taste among other branches. My job was to make source and dressing at that time and all of sudden, only thing what I have to do was to open these packages of source and dressing. It was the moments of what the fuck.
My point is that franchise restaurant companies want that any cook make exact as what the recipes say. They ignore individual talent and skills. only thing they want from us,chef and cook, is to be bending machines.
Korea need more chefs with good philosophy of cooking and chef should open more places, not by company. Also consumers should enjoy more at independent restaurant.
Working for a franchise restaurant company is against my believe. However, I do need money and free time to work on my next project. Ironically, working as menu development chef would be a good idea for now
Thursday, January 2, 2014
I am back in Korea and just open a restaurant
Okay, here is the information that you can get about the restaurant where I work.
It's www.facebook.com/lacuisine.ratedr
It's www.facebook.com/lacuisine.ratedr
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Tell you something about cooking career
Mmm, such a big title for small talk about my job, I don't know what to begin with since there so many things are rush threw in my brain. I was about to grab a shower since I got to work tomorrow. Why? because I have to neutral myself. In order to sense the food, I should not have any odd smell and anything on me. Such a lazy bastard like me, I want to skip it sometimes. Look, I am a just human binging. However, I always try to be clean myself as possible. I am a professional chef. I should keep that way.
If there is anyone who considering to be a chef, you got to listen to me. Here are the things; you don't need much cloths. The working hours are long and no time to think of what to wear. Most of times, you have to put on whatever in your closet to drag your body to work. Many of you met your friend earns more money than you do and live in a bigger house than you do. That sound sucks!
Some of my relationships are Jeffery by between work and love. I try to mix these two little. As a result? Never been happy ending. End of week, I want to go out to be socialized. You know meeting some girls and having some fun. Many of chefs work twice more hours than office workers. We are often suffering both mental and physical pains. Many chefs choose alcoholic, cigarettes, and anything can make chefs get always from the work, they just hand on it. Not all the chefs though, a lot of chefs are trying to keep in clean as they work. These drinking hobbits and rock hard party playing are only optional choice for some rock 'n' roll chefs who believes party hard and work hard, so do I.
All I am try to say it that chef job is all about dedication and pushing the limits. If you are in the kitchen and you can't stay at the hit, I can point out the door. When I was in NYC, there were a Korean girl talk to me about she become a chef just like me. I looked at her. Yes, she was very attractive and hot. When I looked at her, I realized that she were wearing perfume and manicures. I asked her if she is ready to give up the make up and finger nail. She didn't understand why I asked. I explain to her and she seemed to be moving up her mind to something else.
Past my career was the war zone to me. I have to fight back to find out why I really want to become a chef. I often don't have enough in my pocket and not enough time to do any thing I want to do. Every weekend is all about recovering the pains. I've always run around the schedule like a chicken without a head so, on my day offs, I just want to forget about the times and place. That's right zone out for a little while. you can also say my way to getaway. Despite the fact that, I still do love what I do and I want to spicy up with any kind of actives, such as playing guitar, photography, writing, exercising, and anything that helps me to motivate.
What I want to say to you today is we, chefs, working 'till ass off. If you want to be a chef and be serious about it, you got to ready to be the SWAT team. Out side of the work, whatever you do, you should not let outside effect to your job. Okay, the world is going on and there are a lot of shit to deal with but, the most important thing is you gotta do what you gotta do, right? It might referring to any other professional careers.
My sweet weekend is over soon, less than a half day to go. my brain thinks all about what to cook and how to cook. Drinking wine to bloom my taste bulbs would help me and feel like studying meantime, I am getting drunken which is also good. For me, tasting different alcoholic is like hit two bird with one stone. What I like to call is educational fun.
Okay, I may harsh on my career but we have a lot of fun and pleasure to do the job. The key point of being a chef is to love the job. Otherwise, you could end up at McDonald or some crappy food corner to sell meaningless and heartless food. The simple math formula is if you don't give a fuck, you got no luck in your future so, Sense of food plus products times by heart equals the great chef. I am just talking to you about this job but also to me. I need to wake up and face to consequences. In this year, my goal is to upgrade myself. I want to step up and good at what I do. I don't want to see the numbers and stars. Only thing I want to know is that what I am good at and what I should make some changes.
So, tough up kids whoever stepping into this industry. 14th years at the kitchen isn't still enough for me so I have to keep on going. If I can keep on doing, so do you. Just love the cooking will make you a good chef some day and that is what I want to be.
If there is anyone who considering to be a chef, you got to listen to me. Here are the things; you don't need much cloths. The working hours are long and no time to think of what to wear. Most of times, you have to put on whatever in your closet to drag your body to work. Many of you met your friend earns more money than you do and live in a bigger house than you do. That sound sucks!
Some of my relationships are Jeffery by between work and love. I try to mix these two little. As a result? Never been happy ending. End of week, I want to go out to be socialized. You know meeting some girls and having some fun. Many of chefs work twice more hours than office workers. We are often suffering both mental and physical pains. Many chefs choose alcoholic, cigarettes, and anything can make chefs get always from the work, they just hand on it. Not all the chefs though, a lot of chefs are trying to keep in clean as they work. These drinking hobbits and rock hard party playing are only optional choice for some rock 'n' roll chefs who believes party hard and work hard, so do I.
All I am try to say it that chef job is all about dedication and pushing the limits. If you are in the kitchen and you can't stay at the hit, I can point out the door. When I was in NYC, there were a Korean girl talk to me about she become a chef just like me. I looked at her. Yes, she was very attractive and hot. When I looked at her, I realized that she were wearing perfume and manicures. I asked her if she is ready to give up the make up and finger nail. She didn't understand why I asked. I explain to her and she seemed to be moving up her mind to something else.
Past my career was the war zone to me. I have to fight back to find out why I really want to become a chef. I often don't have enough in my pocket and not enough time to do any thing I want to do. Every weekend is all about recovering the pains. I've always run around the schedule like a chicken without a head so, on my day offs, I just want to forget about the times and place. That's right zone out for a little while. you can also say my way to getaway. Despite the fact that, I still do love what I do and I want to spicy up with any kind of actives, such as playing guitar, photography, writing, exercising, and anything that helps me to motivate.
What I want to say to you today is we, chefs, working 'till ass off. If you want to be a chef and be serious about it, you got to ready to be the SWAT team. Out side of the work, whatever you do, you should not let outside effect to your job. Okay, the world is going on and there are a lot of shit to deal with but, the most important thing is you gotta do what you gotta do, right? It might referring to any other professional careers.
My sweet weekend is over soon, less than a half day to go. my brain thinks all about what to cook and how to cook. Drinking wine to bloom my taste bulbs would help me and feel like studying meantime, I am getting drunken which is also good. For me, tasting different alcoholic is like hit two bird with one stone. What I like to call is educational fun.
Okay, I may harsh on my career but we have a lot of fun and pleasure to do the job. The key point of being a chef is to love the job. Otherwise, you could end up at McDonald or some crappy food corner to sell meaningless and heartless food. The simple math formula is if you don't give a fuck, you got no luck in your future so, Sense of food plus products times by heart equals the great chef. I am just talking to you about this job but also to me. I need to wake up and face to consequences. In this year, my goal is to upgrade myself. I want to step up and good at what I do. I don't want to see the numbers and stars. Only thing I want to know is that what I am good at and what I should make some changes.
So, tough up kids whoever stepping into this industry. 14th years at the kitchen isn't still enough for me so I have to keep on going. If I can keep on doing, so do you. Just love the cooking will make you a good chef some day and that is what I want to be.
Sunday, January 6, 2013
Finally Face time with the Screen
When I introduce to people, I say I am a chef and then I give my card. My card says I am a chef plus a writer and a photographer. I want to be these so I like to call myself as is. Funny, I've been claim myself as a professional chef from my fans. However, I am yet to be a true writer nor a photographer. Yes, I do love to write on a piece of paper to express myself and from the photography, I can show people how I see the world. Food? yes it always carries my personality.
Just like everything has little connections with one others, i want to be a medium of these things. Somtimes, it is hard to write something. I don't know but I am becoming a thinker rather than a writer. I do think a lot. Every days are pretty much to build lines to create something on somewhere. Creating isn't easy. Keep consistently thinking about something always drives me nut. I can stop thinking and eventually, I drink to solve the problem. In fact, I do smoke while I write. Occasionally, I quite drunken and then I write. Uh, it might be the drunken talking, just like I've no idea what the fuck I am talking about but just mambo jumbo.
What I believe is to be inspired by something. My life lesson was 'Whatever happens, It happens'. I always look for inspiration. Whatever I tasted, touched, listened, smelled, saw, and did, I want to do it in my way.
One day, I was at a club. You know just for clubbing. My theory of living good life is as much as I do my own thing, I deserve to enjoy. That is why even though my age is 32 years old, I still go to clubs. Anyhow, I was thinking meanwhile I was dancing. There are always more guys than ladies at the club. These desperate fuckers gamble to getting lucky by rubbing their bodies against to ladies' behind. Yes, it is the Russian Roulette but it often lost the luck. I want to be pure of dancing at the club, just the simple reason of saying I fucking love to dance. The sound might not like to me since everyone knows I love ladies and can't live without them but, I am just getting sick and tired of chasing girls like animal hunting. I want to put the past in my 20's. Right now is the time to be patient and calm. I want to be loved by someone who loves me. It's been more 'asking you out' than 'ask me out'. Some of my friend told that I should have a girl friend but I don't really look into enough. Yeah sure, I might be not much into ladies for now, I guess.
All I wanna say, as long as a lady with beautiful smile and comes to me say that she wants to be with me, I am gonna take her to my bed. Well, what can I say, shit happens, right??
It's two weeks of nothing, the down times/ vacation. As long I have 'stay-cation', my kitchen is filled with beer cans. What I learn from this is that I should do something about it. The situation I have is not enough money and, there is no space to think about other things. I am getting spin by it. I should think more about what I want to cook and how I wanna do about it. The consequence told me that this isn't the moment to enjoy whatever I want. I've never had luxury in my life. Only luxury is whenever I can either have or do something upgraded. Only thing now I want to do is to enjoy whenever I can and with whatever I have.
Alright, I will stop write about mambo-jumbo-nonsense. So far, my writing haven't had actual conclusion because my thoughts are still progressive.
People just tell me if you like how I write. It will be inspiration of keep writing. It will be as same as people enjoy whatever I cook. So, tell me!
Just like everything has little connections with one others, i want to be a medium of these things. Somtimes, it is hard to write something. I don't know but I am becoming a thinker rather than a writer. I do think a lot. Every days are pretty much to build lines to create something on somewhere. Creating isn't easy. Keep consistently thinking about something always drives me nut. I can stop thinking and eventually, I drink to solve the problem. In fact, I do smoke while I write. Occasionally, I quite drunken and then I write. Uh, it might be the drunken talking, just like I've no idea what the fuck I am talking about but just mambo jumbo.
What I believe is to be inspired by something. My life lesson was 'Whatever happens, It happens'. I always look for inspiration. Whatever I tasted, touched, listened, smelled, saw, and did, I want to do it in my way.
One day, I was at a club. You know just for clubbing. My theory of living good life is as much as I do my own thing, I deserve to enjoy. That is why even though my age is 32 years old, I still go to clubs. Anyhow, I was thinking meanwhile I was dancing. There are always more guys than ladies at the club. These desperate fuckers gamble to getting lucky by rubbing their bodies against to ladies' behind. Yes, it is the Russian Roulette but it often lost the luck. I want to be pure of dancing at the club, just the simple reason of saying I fucking love to dance. The sound might not like to me since everyone knows I love ladies and can't live without them but, I am just getting sick and tired of chasing girls like animal hunting. I want to put the past in my 20's. Right now is the time to be patient and calm. I want to be loved by someone who loves me. It's been more 'asking you out' than 'ask me out'. Some of my friend told that I should have a girl friend but I don't really look into enough. Yeah sure, I might be not much into ladies for now, I guess.
All I wanna say, as long as a lady with beautiful smile and comes to me say that she wants to be with me, I am gonna take her to my bed. Well, what can I say, shit happens, right??
It's two weeks of nothing, the down times/ vacation. As long I have 'stay-cation', my kitchen is filled with beer cans. What I learn from this is that I should do something about it. The situation I have is not enough money and, there is no space to think about other things. I am getting spin by it. I should think more about what I want to cook and how I wanna do about it. The consequence told me that this isn't the moment to enjoy whatever I want. I've never had luxury in my life. Only luxury is whenever I can either have or do something upgraded. Only thing now I want to do is to enjoy whenever I can and with whatever I have.
Alright, I will stop write about mambo-jumbo-nonsense. So far, my writing haven't had actual conclusion because my thoughts are still progressive.
People just tell me if you like how I write. It will be inspiration of keep writing. It will be as same as people enjoy whatever I cook. So, tell me!
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Miss New York
This photo remind me the photo of New York that I took., which is below. All of sudden, I found that I actually miss New York. Even though the place is messy and smelly but, it has the character and everyone want to have it and I had it. People are right 'hate you will be love you'.I decide to stay at Brussels. I didn't plan to stay. It was just stopping by. I was on the way to do world tour. Shit happens and it became hard everyday. I found a job in Brussels as a catering chef. I thought it would be good chance to get involve in the catering part since I used to a private chef and I guess that is what I am gonna do, i guess.
Since I can stay here and people get recognize me as a chef at Neptune although I am just a second, here would be the good start of creating my own cuisine. It would be very tough. People might not be ready for new comer.
I always say to myself that if I will have my own place to cook, it will be at New York. I still do want to be at New York more than any other places. However, Brussels might be the good start of opening tiny New York door. It might be good title of me 'A Korean Chef from Brussels'.
One day, I saw a place where I want to have my own place here in Brussels. That actually hit me to think about stating from here to NYC. This would be my question for everyday 'Do I really want to start from here?'.
I still don't have any answer for myself, just giving me theories. For now, I just focus on my job and will see what it's gonna happen.
My life is good since I actually live under the roof. I have a job which makes me love my job more. I want to be happy and, apparently, Brussels is the place. I still don't know how much I love Brussels yet. it always requires some times. As my told me ' Enjoy whatever you got' I guess that is what I do 'Live my life'. I live for my life and I feel great to do. I guess I love myself that I can't love anyone but I still do love NYC. One day, I will be back, just count on me, New York
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
lost stories
Since I lost everything, I am starting all over again. Just simple object shacks my life. It seem like natural disaster, which you can not control over it but you should learn how to deal with it.
My story begins with the first trip to work with chef Katsumi Ishida.
I met him when I was at Le Verre Vole . He is a friend with my co worker Ryo. He is a Japanese chef . He is a great guy and chef. I respect him a lot as a chef. He always treat me like as if I am his apprentice but he trust me to do many things. By the way, Ryo opened Le Verre vole Tokyo. With Natural wine connection in France, many people talk about chef Katsumi Ishida. He is the rock star among natural wine makers. He like rock and always rock and roll. Before I left Verre Vole, I had a chance to meet him again because he came by the restaurant to hang out. I want to be his friend and he should show me some tricks. That is why I asked him, with my bad French, if I can have a stagiaire at his kitchen and he accepted me, just right there soon after I asked him. I was hungry for learn new technics of cooking. I did not ask him to pay me because I wanted to learn to be a chef. 2 months at Lyon was great times, except someone pushed me so I was bleeding and, my computer was stolen same night. After all I could not write at all. It became my good excuse of not much writing even though I call myself as a writer on my card. Now, I got my new 300 euro window vistar computer. Shit computer but I just want to happy to see all the porn whenever I want to see. haha, it may just be a jock. I saved good enough money to travel around the world but living at the hostel was way too expensive for non-income. I had to push myself to limit to see how far I can go on. It was a part of my life experience.
I met him when I was at Le Verre Vole . He is a friend with my co worker Ryo. He is a Japanese chef . He is a great guy and chef. I respect him a lot as a chef. He always treat me like as if I am his apprentice but he trust me to do many things. By the way, Ryo opened Le Verre vole Tokyo. With Natural wine connection in France, many people talk about chef Katsumi Ishida. He is the rock star among natural wine makers. He like rock and always rock and roll. Before I left Verre Vole, I had a chance to meet him again because he came by the restaurant to hang out. I want to be his friend and he should show me some tricks. That is why I asked him, with my bad French, if I can have a stagiaire at his kitchen and he accepted me, just right there soon after I asked him. I was hungry for learn new technics of cooking. I did not ask him to pay me because I wanted to learn to be a chef. 2 months at Lyon was great times, except someone pushed me so I was bleeding and, my computer was stolen same night. After all I could not write at all. It became my good excuse of not much writing even though I call myself as a writer on my card. Now, I got my new 300 euro window vistar computer. Shit computer but I just want to happy to see all the porn whenever I want to see. haha, it may just be a jock. I saved good enough money to travel around the world but living at the hostel was way too expensive for non-income. I had to push myself to limit to see how far I can go on. It was a part of my life experience.
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
it's 2 in the morning
what am I doing until this hours?? Well, I've been drinking. In the morning, I tasted little more Whiskey from last night. Well, it actually punches me to wake me up. Bang! Okay I am ready to do any stupid shits. Suck on you, it's my day off and I deserve to have some fun. Even though I am sure I got marry to my work, that is why I can't get any lady, I need some fun. More likely, it might like cheating on my wife in order to have more fun with her. You might think I am crazy. Do not tell me twice because I know. I love what I do now. I finally reached the level which I am allow to be creative. I work fucking my ass off to be there. i am not a just a fucking cooking robot any more. The restaurant opens only 4 days a week but, I work from morning 'till night. I want to do many things so I don't stop working. My boss want to pay every hours i work on but I said I do not care how many hours I work. Only matter is what I have done.
So, as you can see, I love to working fucking hard. Therefore, let me do whatever I wanna do sometimes. I am a fucking crazy person and wanna keep in this way. A fucking crazy chef, that is who I want to be when I grow up. I feel sometimes I am a boy trapped in man's body. Anyhow, I am a professional chef, yo mother-fucker. haha. I am just massing you around, yo!
Shit, I just found a blog called Fuck You Very Much - fuck you is new thank you. I love the concept and visuals. I found that my blog also need something more. I do write but I do need some photos as well. I don't want to put any other photos but mine. Unfortunately, my camera was stolen and, I am saving money for the new one. Losing something is hurtful for the first time but on the bright side, I could get better one next time as long as I can afford it. I get paid good enough to do whatever I want to do which is kinda makes me feel like successing, which mean =ing version of success. It is still progressive. Not always successfully done something great things but fail is the most key ingredient of being success anyway.
Where was I?? Alright. I started writing 2 in the morning and now is 3. fucking hell. Writing a little note took me an hour. Well, I was talking to my chef buddy on facebook, searching for music and video which I was going to watch after done with writing.
One more drink and one more episode of Califonaication, after then, I gotta sleep. Tomorrow is another day of my day offs and I need to do something, finally, before working days. I will keep writing and you will keep reading whatever I write on here. Thanks for listing because my voice might echoing in your brain
So, as you can see, I love to working fucking hard. Therefore, let me do whatever I wanna do sometimes. I am a fucking crazy person and wanna keep in this way. A fucking crazy chef, that is who I want to be when I grow up. I feel sometimes I am a boy trapped in man's body. Anyhow, I am a professional chef, yo mother-fucker. haha. I am just massing you around, yo!
Shit, I just found a blog called Fuck You Very Much - fuck you is new thank you. I love the concept and visuals. I found that my blog also need something more. I do write but I do need some photos as well. I don't want to put any other photos but mine. Unfortunately, my camera was stolen and, I am saving money for the new one. Losing something is hurtful for the first time but on the bright side, I could get better one next time as long as I can afford it. I get paid good enough to do whatever I want to do which is kinda makes me feel like successing, which mean =ing version of success. It is still progressive. Not always successfully done something great things but fail is the most key ingredient of being success anyway.
Where was I?? Alright. I started writing 2 in the morning and now is 3. fucking hell. Writing a little note took me an hour. Well, I was talking to my chef buddy on facebook, searching for music and video which I was going to watch after done with writing.
One more drink and one more episode of Califonaication, after then, I gotta sleep. Tomorrow is another day of my day offs and I need to do something, finally, before working days. I will keep writing and you will keep reading whatever I write on here. Thanks for listing because my voice might echoing in your brain
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
my place
In Brussels, I got a job which makes me feel as if i am an actual chef. Then, I got a place to live. My place is something like you might have seen in 80's movies. The studio seems to be frozen time from 80's. The 80's style studio with the window view of 19 century city but I am actually living in 21 century, funny. When I first time saw the room, I didn't feel like fitting into me. First of all, it was kinda big studio for myself. Well, my past apartments was pretty small since I didn't want to pay too much for it, the studio I got is still good deal for the size and location. Especially, the studio i had in Paris was the most smallest room I've never had in my life. Now in Brussels, I got biggest studio in my life.
Even though I am from 80's, I didn't like the style of the studio. The kitchen is way too small, I know I am not gonna cook much at home but I am a chef and need a proper kitchen just in case of cooking for someone special. There were too many furniture that I do not need all. For instant, additional single bad just takes the space. Previously, there were one single mom and a kid used to live. That is why there is a double bed and a single bed.
Anyhow, soon as I moved there, I rearrange whole place. Now, I like my place a lot. One thing is that I haven't slept on the double bed for ages so, I still sleep one side of the bed. I need a lady to fill in, i guess and i wish. I use the single bed as my 'nap bed' and as a couch. I totally pimped up my place. Next thing I am gonna do is to put my photo works on my walls. I am thinking of using my place as well as a gallery, will see what's gonna happen.
I feel like settling down in Brussels. It is feeling of saying ' You know what? I want to stay.' I've been moving around and I finally found the point of staying and focus on my career. I got a place to live and a job to work. I think my life will get smoother. It's been only 3 months in Brussels and I still don't know here. However, I think it would be really cool to live here for a while.
Belgium is 6th country that I've been working as a chef. In this stage, I should rich up my skill and knowledge. My life turns up hill. There is still far far away to reach the top but I am not looking forward to reach the top yet, I will keep looking up to be there. There is no more worries and struggles but happiness and potential for me. As I like to say often 'Love more, smile more and then much more happier', feel cool to be stand alone and strong.
The last words: I will have the house warming party next month so, you all are invited! Come!
Even though I am from 80's, I didn't like the style of the studio. The kitchen is way too small, I know I am not gonna cook much at home but I am a chef and need a proper kitchen just in case of cooking for someone special. There were too many furniture that I do not need all. For instant, additional single bad just takes the space. Previously, there were one single mom and a kid used to live. That is why there is a double bed and a single bed.
Anyhow, soon as I moved there, I rearrange whole place. Now, I like my place a lot. One thing is that I haven't slept on the double bed for ages so, I still sleep one side of the bed. I need a lady to fill in, i guess and i wish. I use the single bed as my 'nap bed' and as a couch. I totally pimped up my place. Next thing I am gonna do is to put my photo works on my walls. I am thinking of using my place as well as a gallery, will see what's gonna happen.
I feel like settling down in Brussels. It is feeling of saying ' You know what? I want to stay.' I've been moving around and I finally found the point of staying and focus on my career. I got a place to live and a job to work. I think my life will get smoother. It's been only 3 months in Brussels and I still don't know here. However, I think it would be really cool to live here for a while.
Belgium is 6th country that I've been working as a chef. In this stage, I should rich up my skill and knowledge. My life turns up hill. There is still far far away to reach the top but I am not looking forward to reach the top yet, I will keep looking up to be there. There is no more worries and struggles but happiness and potential for me. As I like to say often 'Love more, smile more and then much more happier', feel cool to be stand alone and strong.
The last words: I will have the house warming party next month so, you all are invited! Come!
Monday, July 30, 2012
Looking for little help here
I am asking anyone who read this post.
It's been 10 days of being homeless, jobless and broken. I've been trying to sell my guitar and worked at construction site, which I am still waiting to get paid. I know I don't have any working permit to work here but I am trying to get threw my life from here.
I just need a little donation for warm food, warm shower and warm bed. Any amount of donation will be paid once I get back on my own track.
You can send the donation by Western Union in Gent (Ghent), Belgium which is the current city where I am now. You can put my full name Roydon Kim and my birthday is 1980 July 22. the address is De Pintelaan 260 'Kazerne' Gent 9000. my email address is to roydon@theratedr.com After sending me the donation, you can email me for Money Transfer Control Number in order to collect it.
I would not ask your help if I can stand up alone but it's been too long for hungry and stinky. It will be the one time thing for your help. I will not forget of your big help and I will do same thing next time.
Thank you very much for reading this and, with your help, I will stand up strong and continue my journey of world tour.
It's been 10 days of being homeless, jobless and broken. I've been trying to sell my guitar and worked at construction site, which I am still waiting to get paid. I know I don't have any working permit to work here but I am trying to get threw my life from here.
I just need a little donation for warm food, warm shower and warm bed. Any amount of donation will be paid once I get back on my own track.
You can send the donation by Western Union in Gent (Ghent), Belgium which is the current city where I am now. You can put my full name Roydon Kim and my birthday is 1980 July 22. the address is De Pintelaan 260 'Kazerne' Gent 9000. my email address is to roydon@theratedr.com After sending me the donation, you can email me for Money Transfer Control Number in order to collect it.
I would not ask your help if I can stand up alone but it's been too long for hungry and stinky. It will be the one time thing for your help. I will not forget of your big help and I will do same thing next time.
Thank you very much for reading this and, with your help, I will stand up strong and continue my journey of world tour.
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
after one night
Have you seen the movie of all the bunch of guys get drunken and don't remember what happen that night in Las Vegas?? Well, I fucked up in the similar way.
Since, my computer was stolen, every time when I got drunken, I lost some thing that I belong to. Starting with my glasses, my cell phone which I got from my chef Katsumi and a wallnet that had been with me for 6 years.
One night, I got my paycheck, my camera and my knife case. I had to drink up little bit to celerbrate my last day. Next thing I remember was I got nothing. I feel like some one cut off my right arm. It is really bad. There is a knife has been with me for 13 years so that I got tattoo of it. All my school knives are gone with it. My camera with 3000 photos of all these good meories and art works were gone. A month of working like a dog and got paid like dish washer were gone.
I hit the ground once again. It's been bad situation marathon. I am in bad shave and there is no one, not even one who wanted to work that place for a month. I am basically fucked up. I gotta go to the restaurant In de Wulf but don't know how.
I wanted to kill myself for that I didn't want to live whithout these. I am a chef, a photographer and a writer but I got no knife to cook, no camera to take photo and no computer to writer.
What should I do?? My life is really mess and It is so hard to continue. I really fucked all up bad this time and I don't know I can stand up again but I should try
Since, my computer was stolen, every time when I got drunken, I lost some thing that I belong to. Starting with my glasses, my cell phone which I got from my chef Katsumi and a wallnet that had been with me for 6 years.
One night, I got my paycheck, my camera and my knife case. I had to drink up little bit to celerbrate my last day. Next thing I remember was I got nothing. I feel like some one cut off my right arm. It is really bad. There is a knife has been with me for 13 years so that I got tattoo of it. All my school knives are gone with it. My camera with 3000 photos of all these good meories and art works were gone. A month of working like a dog and got paid like dish washer were gone.
I hit the ground once again. It's been bad situation marathon. I am in bad shave and there is no one, not even one who wanted to work that place for a month. I am basically fucked up. I gotta go to the restaurant In de Wulf but don't know how.
I wanted to kill myself for that I didn't want to live whithout these. I am a chef, a photographer and a writer but I got no knife to cook, no camera to take photo and no computer to writer.
What should I do?? My life is really mess and It is so hard to continue. I really fucked all up bad this time and I don't know I can stand up again but I should try
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
.......
listening music that i want to hear and I am now sitting down at the front of my friend, Benjamin,'s computer to write. I want to buy my own computer but I can't afford. Even if I buy one, how could I continue the project of world tour. My brain is full of thoughts, full of possibility and not sure things. As long as my traveling goes, I feel much lonely and empty in my heart. I do have many good friends who willing to help me out and give me whatever they got. I do thank for my friend. Without them, I am nothing. it's been four months of traveling. If I didn't have anyone, I couldn't go this far. I love all my friends and I also willing to give them back something.
Even though I have so many loving people, I feel like something missing. I choose to be a traveler chef because I love to cook and traveling. I want to meet many different people just like I want to work with variety cuisine. I love what I do and what I accomplished. However, I think it is time to have a special someone in my heart. I am physically and mentally tired of being only one. I am here in Paris for a month and then Belgium for another month. After then, I will keep moving. Short love? maybe? but, I want to hold it as long as I could.
I want to see her eyes to say love you. I want to be with her as long as I could. I sometimes want to lock the doors to spend "private time" with her. All I am dreaming is too difficult to do right now. I even don't remember when was the last time feeling love.
Lonely is killing me now. I don't want to put down my feeling because of it. I need sunny days. I wish to stand strong because of her. i wish there is someone comes with me to travel with me.
Shit, I should get out of the room. Enjoy the day and stop thinking too much; that is my goal of today
Even though I have so many loving people, I feel like something missing. I choose to be a traveler chef because I love to cook and traveling. I want to meet many different people just like I want to work with variety cuisine. I love what I do and what I accomplished. However, I think it is time to have a special someone in my heart. I am physically and mentally tired of being only one. I am here in Paris for a month and then Belgium for another month. After then, I will keep moving. Short love? maybe? but, I want to hold it as long as I could.
I want to see her eyes to say love you. I want to be with her as long as I could. I sometimes want to lock the doors to spend "private time" with her. All I am dreaming is too difficult to do right now. I even don't remember when was the last time feeling love.
Lonely is killing me now. I don't want to put down my feeling because of it. I need sunny days. I wish to stand strong because of her. i wish there is someone comes with me to travel with me.
Shit, I should get out of the room. Enjoy the day and stop thinking too much; that is my goal of today
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
The Cook, The Thief, His Wife and Her Lover
One of the best movie with cooking I've never seen. The color contras, the interior of the restaurant, the cook's creation, so vivid color of his wife's dress and every scenes of this movie, even horrify ending, I love everything about this movie
Living in Provence
Where I am right now is called La-Drome-Provence and the town I am staying is Valaurie. I've no I idea what it means but even the name sounds beautiful, isn't it? At the farm, I've been here 3 weeks already and I don't feel like to move. This could be my actual first time for feeling of staying. Thinking of have you ever had thought of 'no, I want to stay'. I think I never had had once. Even though when I stay with my family, I always find a way to stay away from them. I think I finally found my peace here. I became little slow down and relax little bit, simply eat well, work well, and make sure enjoy well.
Monday, May 14, 2012
about a girl and girls II
I feel like i am confidence with ladies since I met many ladies in the half of my life. The ladies make me feel like a man and I've been enjoy it. I can talk dirty shit or bit nasty until she gave me a sign of 'now is the time to stop'. Haha, I am an asshole, I am saying! what can I say, I grew up with girls. Imagine that I was always with girl, cousins and my sister, it was way too much. I might act like a school girl sometimes but, deep inside of me, I am the fucking man.
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