A pack of Camel, A six pack of Hineken, A can of Redbulls, a bottle of Coke, and a cup of Latte

Even though all these things are not good for my health, sometimes, these are all I need....

Monday afternoon...

Monday is also my day off. I spent many days to look for job and do nothing, so I feel like to do something even though today is my day off. I really want to have a part time job that I can spend my days. I like to walk around take some photos, meet people to have a nice dinner for restaurant review, research more about new recipes, write about anything. I wish I could write a novel. I often wrote poems and short stories when I was at high school. I've write many things but I don't know what to write sometimes. Often, crazy thoughts crushes to my brain. However, I usually couldn't know how to start and finish. It's like bad sex, keep going but don't know when to finish.

Anyway, I want to feel the life. Sitting on my bed and watching TV would not make me feel like as if I am really living the life. I don't have a desire of having so much money, but I do have a strong desire to be multi talented. I can cook and also photograph, write, draw, and design my own place. That's thing always stays in my brain all the time. I really want to what I love to do for rest of my life. 2 years for chef Thomas Henkelmann and 3 years at CIA, I believe I can do anything I dream to do after all.

Another hungry day, I asked a few people to lend me some money, but I guess my trustworthy wasn't that good enough to them or I couldn't build my strong credit for them.

God damn it, I am probably not gonna eat anything today but how I can go to work tomorrow...

Hungry day...

I had only 3 dollars and some coins on me today. I was so hungry. I couldn't afford anything beside a cup of instant noodle. I spent 1.50 dollars for it. I asked my friend, Jay, to lend me some money so that I could eat something and commute to work until i got a refund check and pay check. I sent several text and tried to call her a few times, but she didn't respond. i might be the one who very annoy.
I am hungry for many things; hungry for food, hungry for better food, hungry for not being hungry, hungry for success, hungry for better life, hungry for everything. Well the life is aways being hungry for something anyway.
I should be happy for being hungry. I tasted how hunger made me miserable, so I should push myself to reach the at my goal. Otherwise, I probably hungry for rest of my life.