it's 2 in the morning

what am I doing until this hours?? Well, I've been drinking. In the morning, I tasted little more Whiskey from last night. Well, it actually punches me to wake me up. Bang! Okay I am ready to do any stupid shits. Suck on you, it's my day off and I deserve to have some fun. Even though I am sure I got marry to my work, that is why I can't get any lady, I need some fun. More likely, it might like cheating on my wife in order to have more fun with her. You might think I am crazy. Do not tell me twice because I know. I love what I do now. I finally reached the level which I am allow to be creative. I work fucking my ass off to be there. i am not a just a fucking cooking robot any more. The restaurant opens only 4 days a week but, I work from morning 'till night. I want to do many things so I don't stop working. My boss want to pay every hours i work on but I said I do not care how many hours I work. Only matter is what I have done.
So, as you can see, I love to working fucking hard. Therefore, let me do whatever I wanna do sometimes. I am a fucking crazy person and wanna keep in this way. A fucking crazy chef, that is who I want to be when I grow up. I feel sometimes I am a boy trapped in man's body. Anyhow, I am a professional chef, yo mother-fucker. haha. I am just massing you around, yo!
Shit, I just found a blog called Fuck You Very Much - fuck you is new thank you. I love the concept and visuals. I found that my blog also need something more. I do write but I do need some photos as well. I don't want to put any other photos but mine. Unfortunately, my camera was stolen and, I am saving money for the new one. Losing something is hurtful for the first time but on the bright side, I could get better one next time as long as I can afford it. I get paid good enough to do whatever I want to do which is kinda makes me feel like successing, which mean =ing version of success. It is still progressive. Not always successfully done something great things but fail is the most key ingredient of being success anyway.
Where was I?? Alright. I started writing 2 in the morning and now is 3. fucking hell. Writing a little note took me an hour. Well, I was talking to my chef buddy on facebook, searching for music and video which I was going to watch after done with writing.
One more drink and one more episode of Califonaication, after then, I gotta sleep. Tomorrow is another day of my day offs and I need to do something, finally, before working days. I will keep writing and you will keep reading whatever I write on here. Thanks for listing because my voice might echoing in your brain

my place

In Brussels, I got a job which makes me feel as if i am an actual chef. Then, I got a place to live. My place is something like you might have seen in 80's movies. The studio seems to be frozen time from 80's. The 80's style studio with the window view of 19 century city but I am actually living in 21 century, funny. When I first time saw the room, I didn't feel like fitting into me. First of all, it was kinda big studio for myself. Well, my past apartments was pretty small since I didn't want to pay too much for it, the studio I got is still good deal for the size and location. Especially, the studio i had in Paris was the most smallest room I've never had in my life. Now in Brussels, I got biggest studio in my life.
Even though I am from 80's, I didn't like the style of the studio. The kitchen is way too small, I know I am not gonna cook much at home but I am a chef and need a proper kitchen just in case of cooking for someone special. There were too many furniture that I do not need all. For instant, additional single bad just takes the space. Previously, there were one single mom and a kid used to live. That is why there is a double bed and a single bed.
Anyhow, soon as I moved there, I rearrange whole place. Now, I like my place a lot. One thing is that I haven't slept on the double bed for ages so, I still sleep one side of the bed. I need a lady to fill in, i guess and i wish. I use the single bed as my 'nap bed' and as a couch. I totally pimped up my place. Next thing I am gonna do is to put my photo works on my walls. I am thinking of using my place as well as a gallery, will see what's gonna happen.
I feel like settling down in Brussels. It is feeling of saying ' You know what? I want to stay.' I've been moving around and I finally found the point of staying and focus on my career. I got a place to live and a job to work. I think my life will get smoother. It's been only 3 months in Brussels and I still don't know here. However, I think it would be really cool to live here for a while.
Belgium is 6th country that I've been working as a chef. In this stage, I should rich up my skill and knowledge. My life turns up hill. There is still far far away to reach the top but I am not looking forward to reach the top yet, I will keep looking up to be there. There is no more worries and struggles but happiness and potential for me. As I like to say often 'Love more, smile more and then much more happier', feel cool to be stand alone and strong.
The last words: I will have the house warming party next month so, you all are invited! Come!