Friday, July 31, 2009

Leaving CIA


mmm, I am so upset right now. I don't normally smoke more than 2 or 3 per a day, but last night I smoked 5. It was such stress to leave CIA. Just because I don't have enough money they have to kick me out. I wish there is student bail out program something so that student can study and pay all the debts after graduation. Well, American citizen can get student loan, but not for foreign students. Especially, Korean government doesn't have any program to support the students in overseas. I am simply fuck up. I got nowhere to go and I just loose the desire of money.
Should I just got marry with an American? Should I just got a sponsorship visa in here? Should I go away from America? Should I just go for travel to be a hippie and a gypsy? Should I bury myself in the middle of nowhere where I can live without money? Should I go to New Zealand to do volunteer farming?
I am no fucking clue about what I should do... and all the plans after graduating the school and while I study are just fucked up. Well, my life was fuck up.
I knew I don't have enough money to study here but I did anyway. I knew some day I might not be able to study here. However, I am so disappointed. I feel terrible about the situation....
Is there any bright news on my blog?

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