The First day of December, damn I have another three month to enter Culinary Institute of America. Fuck, I don't know what I can do for three months. I truly don't know what to do... When I saw this Adidas commercial on television, I aways feel like I deadly want to have a party like them; The Party Like Rock Star! I can't have a party like that for sure while unemployed, though I wanna... It is suck that nobody is hired me. All my ex-bosses like me. I might look like either a punk or funk or dumm. Today, I went to Riverdale and Manhattan ELS center to give my business card to tell people I want to work for them seriously, but I felt really good today. Everyone welcomed me so much. Especially Suzanna, my English teacher in Riverdale, warmly hugged me, so does Anna, Kindra, and Franchis. They are very nice teachers. I love them all. They really teach the students with hearts, I believe that. I felt really shine to say I want to work for them, so I just say like everything is alright even though it is. Poor life is suck. Everyday, I am having struggle with money. Even one penny needs to count. For next three month, I will be having a hard time to ask some money from my mother. I am fucking twenty-eight, but still nobody. I hate that feeling. Since I stared chef career, I've had many hard times so does everyone. Many people said that I have a talent of cooking. My girl is my huge fan of my cooking because I put extra love, ha ha. It's been fun with cooking for my girl. Perhaps my girl was a guinea pig for me. Whatever I mad, even though if was not good at all, she always eat for me and dish wash. That is what we both feel that gaining some weights, funny, uh? Back to what I said, I have been asking people to hire me. The relationship between teachers and a student could be the clients and a chef. I like that sound. When ever we cooked together, we could talk about past. As some people said I speak very well with people, I might be alright with new clients, I mean I have to be. While I was on the subway to Riverdale, I thought about what I can do for my clients. For teaching and advising the cooking, I will charge them $15 to $20. For cooking for them, I will charge for each person. About the cooking and testy food, I have to have my signature dishes, something that only I can do. My soup and roast meats are the most favorite menus of my friends. Dessert is the least favorite food, I think I always failed to make it, but I love to make this when everything goes well. What I have to do is I need more study. A couple month ago, I bought some books about molecular gastronomy and food science, so I have some books to be much knowledgeable. Any business has always been tough time to put everything is smooth. Mmm, I have a party this Wednesday night at Star Lounge, so I probably have a really good time with dance. I got to have a party like Rock Star. That is why I need my people to come with me and party with me. I think it's the time to go sleep. I really want to sleep without thinking about I am going to do for next three month. Sleep early tonight and sleep early tomorrow, that I what I need nowadays. Party up!! Let's forget about everything while we are dancing together!!
Anyway, the day was good. I met my people at two different places. At the Manhattan center, I met some old friends, so I told them to come to the party and about what I do nowadays. Everyone said they will come. There is a teacher who is a rapper as well, Daric. By the way, I like his songs, very cool bit. He will have his concet. That sound awesome. Yeah!! More party!! So, I don't have to worry anything. Simply be crazy about something that I like. Am I cazy? Anthony will say "Yes you are."
It's been one month since I've been looking for a job to survive in New York. Fucking tough. So far, nothing goes well. All the money in my pocket have became emptied, probably only dust left. I don't know but I feel little bit blue today. Last a month, I might have sent around 100 emails to the people who need a chef or any general worker, yet I am the only one shouting without someone shouting back. I don't, I can't, want to blame anyone about my situation because I choose to stay here before starting to study. I've been staring at Cragslist.com everyday so that I will not miss any job ad. Soon as I saw something that I want to, I sent a email right away. There are many job openings, but I don't how many job is opened for me. Living the life without doing absolutely nothing is terrible and depressed. I got to find something to do!! and earn some money!!
