listening music that i want to hear and I am now sitting down at the front of my friend, Benjamin,'s computer to write. I want to buy my own computer but I can't afford. Even if I buy one, how could I continue the project of world tour. My brain is full of thoughts, full of possibility and not sure things. As long as my traveling goes, I feel much lonely and empty in my heart. I do have many good friends who willing to help me out and give me whatever they got. I do thank for my friend. Without them, I am nothing. it's been four months of traveling. If I didn't have anyone, I couldn't go this far. I love all my friends and I also willing to give them back something.
Even though I have so many loving people, I feel like something missing. I choose to be a traveler chef because I love to cook and traveling. I want to meet many different people just like I want to work with variety cuisine. I love what I do and what I accomplished. However, I think it is time to have a special someone in my heart. I am physically and mentally tired of being only one. I am here in Paris for a month and then Belgium for another month. After then, I will keep moving. Short love? maybe? but, I want to hold it as long as I could.
I want to see her eyes to say love you. I want to be with her as long as I could. I sometimes want to lock the doors to spend "private time" with her. All I am dreaming is too difficult to do right now. I even don't remember when was the last time feeling love.
Lonely is killing me now. I don't want to put down my feeling because of it. I need sunny days. I wish to stand strong because of her. i wish there is someone comes with me to travel with me.
Shit, I should get out of the room. Enjoy the day and stop thinking too much; that is my goal of today
