The Cook, The Thief, His Wife and Her Lover

One of the best movie with cooking I've never seen. The color contras, the interior of the restaurant, the cook's creation, so vivid color of his wife's dress and every scenes of this movie, even horrify ending, I love everything about this movie

Living in Provence

Where I am right now is called La-Drome-Provence and the town I am staying is Valaurie. I've no I idea what it means but even the name sounds beautiful, isn't it? At the farm, I've been here 3 weeks already and I don't feel like to move. This could be my actual first time for feeling of staying. Thinking of have you ever had thought of 'no, I want to stay'. I think I never had had once. Even though when I stay with my family, I always find a way to stay away from them. I think I finally found my peace here. I became little slow down and relax little bit, simply eat well, work well, and make sure enjoy well.

about a girl and girls II

I feel like i am confidence with ladies since I met many ladies in the half of my life. The ladies make me feel like a man and I've been enjoy it. I can talk dirty shit or bit nasty until she gave me a sign of 'now is the time to stop'. Haha, I am an asshole, I am saying! what can I say, I grew up with girls. Imagine that I was always with girl, cousins and my sister, it was way too much. I might act like a school girl sometimes but, deep inside of me, I am the fucking man.

what happen last two months??

Here are the things that happened to me. My computer was stolen which is the biggest thing for me. Some stupid mother fucker took my baby away and I want my baby back to keep writing and have my own entertainment. who-the-fuck-ever you are, you will pay for taking other person's belongs.
I feel kinda more likely lost myself after all. I don't know. A day before I came to France, my computer broken down and I had no choice but brought it with me anyhow. I used to use my buddy's computer when I started to live in France. Once my friend needed it back, I gave him and I was saving money for buying new one. it took me 4 or 5 months even though it was the cheapest thing anyone can buy. You know people say all the times 'cheap shit', which means it is cheap and it is shit. My computer was that but I liked it. Now, I am at a farm and they are kind enough to let me use their computer to do whatever hell I wanna do with this computer but once I left here, I don't know how to communicate.
Mmm, working at a farm is my second stage of this trip but, only 5.80 Euro is in my pocket and that is all. Good news is that working at a farm doesn't really need money so I got 3 more weeks to bounce back. I tried all these restaurants around this area in order to let them know I am available to work. In three days, I walked about 4 km and visited 6 restaurants. Two restaurants were closed for out of season. Only one chef, I actually met to talk about, you know a chef to a chef. And non of them needed someone to cook right now. So, what should I do from now....
I am not going to give up my traveling. I have to go threw no matter what. I believe in myself and there is always the way to get it done. I knew I would be out of money and no where to go but I prepared. I got my tent and sleeping back. I don't have a computer to type my thoughts but I got my note. My knife case, chef jackets, and working shoes are in my back so I am ready to work. My camera will keep documenting my view of the world and my guitar will be my entertainment. So, am I okay?? I think so. Even though I have walk long way with my baggage, I think I should get threw what I planed. This time I will put a big sign on my back pack "I am a cook to be hired. If you need someone to cook for you, here I am!"
World Tour: Rated R is continuing

Le Verre Volé - Forgotten Story (wrote on October)

This is the restaurant I have been working past 6 months. As a first timer in France, I would have expected to be a part of the team under a big shot chef. My first job in Paris was like that. Two good chef run the kitchen and it was spectacular experience. Working at Saturne was actually opened my eyes to see deeper inside of culinary world. After I took off from Saturne, I landed at Le Verre Volé which is a small tiny natural wine bistro. My first impression was just shocking moments because I had never expected not seeing any table clothes, serving wines with jeans on and no other chef wearing chef jackets.

Too busy or Too lazy??

I feel sorry to my readers that I haven't posted anything for last a month. Right now, I hit the road to travel all around world to taste what kind of cuisine I want to do.

My first stop is Lyon. I came here was one reason and one opportunity. One of well known chef in Lyon, chef Katsumi Ishida, gave me the chance to learn from him. He is a Japanese but he cooks French better and richer than any French chefs.

I stepped on my first step to complete my journey of searching for my cuisine, just like finding myself.

I am a homeless. Living at one of expansible city and low paid didn't even give me any chance to save some budget but I hit the road anyway. I like to say 'Life is either sink or swim'. I am on the road to be a chef with culinary philosophy. I am not looking for being a Michelin Star chef but I just want to be good at what I like to do for my life.

I wrote some articles for my blog. My defence is that I haven't had the Internet connection plus, much chance to be at the front of my computer that long enough to write something on here.
My homework is to keep writing about my traveling and what is in my mind that keeps telling me or asking me to find the answer. I started my journey. I have to continue it no matter what. I really want to. I want to finish my traveling, just wonder around, this year. I got no money and no one with me. It is for my life and I have to be stronger for it. Don't be too lazy to write something on here because I create this. I created this blog for combined art and culinary.
Dear readers, I will write my ass off. Dear my life, I want to keep recording or keep documenting what I do because what I do is who I am.

Spent too much time in my room

It’s been 13 years….

That is how long I have been in the kitchen beside the time I used to be a waiter since I was 16 years old. I don’t remember why I wanted to be a chef when I started it. Be frankly, girls loved a guy with cook books when I started cooking. I thought that was break threw to get laid. Only the problems is that past years weren’t my shows. I wasn’t shiny gold to bright up at the front of ladies. Maybe that is the reason I am always cranky, the person who is always not happy.

Whenever I saw a guy with ugly face and looking so fucking so lonely, I asked myself if I am that guy. really?? Why can’t I be a guy that having sex with 100 girls in a year?? Okay, if you think that I am thinking of sex too much, I think you are right. I do think I am sex addicted sometimes. I thought that I could get laid all the times when I become a chef. Yes, cooking for a girl is the most erotic thing the man can do for her. My favorite thing is that wearing nothing but an apron when I cook for a girl. I haven’t had chance, though. I want to do it!





With that basic reason, without thinking of cooking better food every day, I have only been cooking, I guess. I often embarrass by saying “I’ve been cooking for 13 years.”. When I got a big tattoo of my first knife with a sign of ‘Since 1999’, I didn’t want to put it at the first because people will ask me what is the mean by since 1999 and I have to say that is the year when I started cooking. Only the problem would be that people might think my food isn’t good enough for 13 years and wonder what he has been doing all these years. Despite all these fact that I put it with my first knife, I know it will be my wake up call, to say to myself ‘ wake up! You have been cooking since 1999, for god sake, it was fucking last century.’. I think I became more ego to be better and want to swim deep inside of the ocean because I want to swim, not sinking. I can’t really focus on only one thing, even my writing lost the focus time to time, but, if I focus on many things, I became more focused. It probably is the reason of why I have tried many things. Although my cuisine may lose some focus than 100 percent-ers, I am not only a chef. I don’t have any talents. Only talent that I have is to be different. I can’t just follow other people’s style. I like to observe few thing and then alter to my own way. Whatever I do is just me. I want to hear ‘that is Roy’. Now I want to put that in my cuisine.

It was last thing I cooked for Le Verre Vole

Slow Roasted & Herb Crushed Pork 

Drunken Photography

Today is Friday

Yes Today is Friday and from tomorrow ‘till Tuesday is my last shift at Le Verre Vole. Which means it this is my last shows there. Today is the probably last day of not so much worry about doing nothing since I got a job and, three days and a half day, I work ‘till my ass off so, I deserve to do nothing. I like this life. A half of a week is my duty call to cook and rest days of a week is mine. Only the problem is that I like to smoke and drink a lot and three days gave me the chance of unstoppable. I want to control myself so I’ve been doing exercise to build my body and even bought a guitar to spend some time productively but what have I been doing on my off days?

Loving someone…

For me loving someone is so hard. First of all, I don’t know how to love someone but, only how to make love to her. I do have many loving friends who I love from deep inside of my heart. Many of them, just because every individual lives in different countries and world, it is often hard to keep in touch each other. However, my friends know me how much I love them and miss them. That could be the reason I can stand up in this world and not feel much about being left alone. Anyhow, This love isn’t what I want to say. I want to talk about love between a lady and a gentleman.

My last Summer Dish:

Onglet beef with Confit Tomato, Roasted Multi color Beet, Green puree and mushroom puree

The meaning of life

Life is tough and rough. It is like driving on off-road. I had been threw a death experience, parent divorce, death of my father, depression from not improving my skills and knowledge of my career and, hard times to get a job where I want to be belonged. Sometimes, I thought that hard time always gave me the reasonable answer to why I should continue what I do now. I have been 12 year of culinary field, plus I grew up at my parent restaurants before I actually made my mind to be a cook.

It is still so funny that why I started cooking for life. I had no interested of good eatery or something good in my mouth. I still do eat instant ramen often because it actually brought the memories of the ramen that it was actually good food when I grew up. I didn’t mean I was living with poor family. Despite of the fact that, my childhood neighborhood was the last part added to the capital city and the area was full of working class families. I was one of the luckiest one since my parent owned a restaurant and I didn’t have to worry about being hungry. The restaurant was my home and my playground. Especially, I love to be in the kitchen watching how the food had been made. My father wasn’t a chef when he open a Korean-Chinese restaurant. My father wasn’t rich or didn’t have any dreams about what he wanted to become. He stepped the restaurant business by working as Chinese restaurant delivery boy. With that experiences that he had, he got married to my mom and opened a restaurant in capital city to raise their children within capital city education system.

Naked Talk

I remind you one thing. There is a reason to be named “Rate R” for my blog. I am a dirty talker, okay?? I frankly use “F-word” a lot. There is a lady asked me why I often use a such bad word as fuck. My answer was “First of all, I love to fuck and as a resolute, I love to say ‘fuck’”.

Okay, I will get to the point why I titled “Naked Talk”. I believe that a girl and a boy can be any more truthful when they both get naked on the bed and talk each other while they both look at each other. If there is any rejection, I will tell you that you have never done so, try it what else to lose? Naked talking is the most wonder full way and strong way to bond together. I love the moment of talking each other or simply looking at her as much as having sex with her.